For many that don't know, October encompasses the day my hubby James "unofficially" proposed (16), my son's birthday (17) and James birthday (22). Since it’s coming up on 3 months since James death (21st) and with my son on tour in Afghanistan, its a bit MORE emotional for me. (Hey don't judge me, I am being honest here so work with me please).
I pop out to show my face at the Social Excellence event on Wednesday night, showing support for my homeboy Nicoh David. I leave the event and I am on the way home, praising God, listening to TD Jakes and preaching to my rearview mirror and the back seat. (Don't give me that look you do it too). Anyway, I get ready to get on Lake Shore Drive at Rooseveltin Chicago, and I hear this thumping on my car. WHAT? I jump out to look and my tire is flat! DEAR JESUS SON OF GOD HEAVEN AND EARTH!! Ok, I back up 1.5 blocks (don't judge me I told you), turn around and go to the gas station on Wabash and Roosevelt road.
What do you think is the first thing I did? Take a guess. I picked up my phone to call my hubby James! Then I said, "wait he's not here". I thought about calling my son and realized he wasn't around either. I sat there for a moment, rain pouring down outside, and I was a bit broken with tears in my eyes. I called my daughter Amber and she got her boyfriend to offer to come and help. I then looked at my hubby's obituary that I keep in the car and started talking to him (Ya work with what you have people). I started to cry and told him how much I really relied on him without giving it a second thought. He was my keeper, my king, my protector, my shield, my angel; and he would have been there quickly to rescue me.
Anyway, the car was taken care of and on the drive home, I finished preaching my sermon to myself, I thanked God for having a "ram in the bush" for me (with my daughter and her boyfriend saving the day), for not allowing me to be driving on the expressway when the flat happened, for the many years that he loaned James to me, and for getting me home safe and snug in my bed. #GodIsLove